"Oh... Um. It's you... Again.
Hello. James." Jiggerpuff didn't seem as happy to see me as I'd
expected.
"Hi Jig! Is something wrong? I've
missed you." His face, heavily bearded in thick red hair and
coming just above my knee, lit up a little at that. He had missed me
too.
"Oh... Ah... Nothin' wrong. Just
wasn't expectin' to see ya again as such. You been gone a long time."
His meaty hands fiddled with the end of his waist long beard. I had
been gone a long time. I was having to get more and more creative in
order to get back.
"I'm sorry Jig. Had a bit of
trouble opening the Way."
"Oh! Forgot about that!" He
began scampering around me, looking for injuries. His long tail, like
a white lion's, stuck out of his blue trousers and trailed behind
him. "Where are ya hurt?"
My hand flew to my side, the forgotten
pain returning in a hurry. My shirt was torn and dampened with blood
from the knife wound. This one would take a while to heal. Good.
"That looks bad," Jig said,
his face turning pale; he never could stand the sight of blood. "Come
on. I'll take ya to see ol' Ghatz."
Jig led the way through the dry,
crunchy grasses of Jossip's field into the shade of the Witch Wood.
Not that he had to - I could have found my way to Ghatz's tree in the
perfect pitch black of a Lunarean night. In fact, I had on at least
three occasions. But Jig had been the one to lead me to the old
witch's home the first time I ever found myself in Lunarea. There was
something nostalgic in following him now.
Ghatz looked the same as ever when we
arrived at her massive oak. We scaled the rung-like indentations in
the thick, gnarled bark and entered an alcove of twisted branches.
The floor was flat and level, despite being a natural growth of the
oak. That was Ghatz's power; she worked with the forest. She was a
part of the forest.
She stared at me with those reflective,
yellow eyes as I stood hunched and bleeding from the climb. Her dark
feathers ruffled and she crossed her human-like arms.
"You again, eh?" She always
sound harsh, but I knew she meant well. She had even smiled at me
once, after the Battle for the Towers. Ghatz never smiled at anyone.
"You're going to get yourself killed one day, you know.
I gave her a weak grin as Jig led me to
a bed I had l laid on many times before. How many times? I counted in
my head while Ghatz gathered dried herbs and instructed Jig to boil
some water.
"Ten," I said aloud.
"What are you babbling about?"
Ghatz asked from the large table, also an extension of the oak, where
she was grinding herbs for a poultice.
"This marks the tenth time I've
been to Lunarea!" I couldn't contain my excitement. I started to
sit up to look at their faces.
I caught a glimpse of Jiggerpuff's
nervous expression before Ghatz walked over and roughly pushed me
back down.
"Are you trying to fucking kill
yourself!" She never used to swear. I think she held it in at
first, but after my third or fourth visit she just couldn't be
bothered. "Ten times. It was supposed to be a one time deal, you
know. But you're just so fucking persistent. I wonder what kind of
Catastrophe you stirred up this time."
I used to think that Lunarea was always
in danger. Turns out it's mostly when I show up.
"Don't worry Ghantz. I always set
things right."
"Oh, my fucking hero. Wouldn't
have to set them right of you just stayed at home." Ghatz didn't
mean anything by it. She was always giving everyone a hard time.
"Aw. Give 'im a break, Ghatz. He's
hurt ya know." Jig always stood up for me. He gave his life for
me when we were defending Crystal Gardens and the Lady Aldea. I
brought him back with a pebble a sea nymph gave me. That was 17 years
ago, when I first came stumbling into Lunarea, but it's still the
most important day of my life.
"Wouldn't even be hurt if he was
content to stay in his own damn world. What difference does ten make
anyway?" She cleaned my wound and began applying the dressing.
"I don't know," I admitted,
"It just feels like it should be important."
"Hmmph. Well ten must be your
lucky number because that's about how many days it'll take for you to
heal. Give or take."
Ten days. So it wasn't as deep a wound
as I'd thought. If only he'd twisted the knife a little, that might
have helped. Still - ten days wasn't all that bad. Better than that
time I had that small cut on my eyebrow. I didn't even get to visit a
full day before it healed up and I was sent back to that grubby
little alley by the subway.
"Well ten days isn't too bad. What
do you think Jig? What should we do? Visit Haddis in the Great Eyrie?
See the Towers of Aranon? Play tricks on the mermaids at Glass Home?
We haven't done that in ages!"
Jig sort of just looked at his feet for
a minute, fiddling with his beard again. I was about to ask him what
was wrong when a bird flew in through one of the gaps in the branches
of the oak. It flew to Ghatz's table, stirring up dried herbs and
loose parchment as it landed.
Shivers ran up my spine. Its head was
twilight blue and faded to pure silver further down its body. It was
flecked with spots like opals - not quite one colour, ever changing
as the light struck them from different angles. It was a silver
starling. Only one person in Lunarea had a bird like that.
"Lady Aldea requests your presence
at the Crystal Gardens, James Childsaviour," if quicksilver had
a voice, it would be the voice of the silver starling.
"I'm hardly the Childsaviour
anymore," I laughed. It was a meaningless thing to say but I was
in shock. Lady Aldea. Of all the times I had visited Lunarea I had
only seen her once - the first time. When I saved her and all of
Lunarea from the Light Devourers. They had called me to this world to
save them. A little boy, bullied by everyone, who happened to find
his way into a little alley in a bad part of town. It hadn't been a
coincidence I'd stumbled down there - they needed me. She had needed
me. And now - she needed me again.
"She asks that you leave for the
Crystal Gardens immediately. She will await you there."
"What about the Catastrophe?"
Ghatz asked. There was always a Catastrophe when I came through the
Way.
"A Fear Storm near the shores of
Aranon. It is already being dealt with by others. Lady Aldea requests
you leave immediately." The starling flew away and I stood
dumbfounded.
"Well, I guess you better get
moving. The Crystal Gardens are nearly a ten day journey away,"
Ghatz sounded almost smug. It was somewhat disappointing to have to
spend my entire time travelling. But to see Lady Aldea again, even
for a moment...
"Come on Jig - let's get going."
We made good time despite travelling on
foot most of the way. I was ecstatic. It was wonderful to see the
Lunarean countryside again, to relive those defining moments over in
my head. And to see Lady Aldea.
"Look Jig! There's the Archstone
where we first met! And there! That's the tree where I slayed Gharen.
The Devourers didn't see that coming! I wish Haddis could be here
with us - I hope she's not still angry with me about what happened to
the Eyrie last time I came through."
I wished I could stay longer. Forever.
I put my hand to my side and felt the twinge of pain there from the
wound. I considered trying to open it, preventing the healing
process, but I knew it was useless. I'd tried it before a few times
and it had never amounted to anything. It seemed I could only stay as
long as it would have taken the original wound to heal - without
interference. The rules of this world - particularly the ones about
entering and departing it - were strict. But not strict enough to
keep me out for too long.
"What do you think Lady Aldea
wants, Jig? Think she has some grand quest for us?"
"Don't know, James." Jig was
a bit sullen but I figured it must have been the weather. I noticed
him eyeing the slate grey clouds in the distance and tugging at his
beard whenever an icy breeze came our way. We even saw a little snow
despite it being late spring. Likely just the tail end of the Fear
Storm.
I had forgotten how beautiful the
Crystal Gardens were. They were tucked away in a valley, surrounded
on all sides by great mountains. There was a tiny pass, invisible to
all but those invited to the gardens. As we emerged from the darkness
of the passages we had to squint at the brightness of the sun being
reflected off of thousands of multifaceted crystal flowers. The
garden looked as though it had been frozen immediately after a
rainstorm - each leaf and bloom perfectly preserved within a coating
of ice. It wasn't ice though, and the flowers grew and died just like
anywhere else in Lunarea or on Earth. I resisted the urge to linger
amid the sparkling roses and hydrangeas, the twilight violets and the
glowing sunflowers. Jig and I walked hurriedly down the path to the
tall marble tower in the centre of the valley, trying to stay focused
despite the amazing sights surrounding us. I had hardly half a day
left before I would disappear and be returned to my own world.
Lady Aldea was shorter than I
remembered. She was only maybe two inches taller than I was, not
including the great antlers - not unlike a deer's - that rose from
the top of her head. I guess that's what happens when you haven't see
someone since you were a child of nine. Everything else was exactly
as I recalled. Her skin was like frost but with a slight blue tinge
and her hair was raven black. It was her eyes though, that held me
enthralled. They were violet and incomprehensible. As if entire
worlds rose and fell behind them.
"The Childsaviour has returned,"
she said.
"Your lady," I bowed as
deeply as I could. Jig also bowed, in his awkward way.
"You were not meant to return,"
she said simply, "You saved our world and were returned to your
own - but you have now visited our land many times. Why is this?"
I was suddenly nervous. I hesitated,
thought for a moment, and then answered as honestly as I could. "I
missed this place. Your lady."
"James. We must often say goodbye
to things we love."
"No. I'm sorry, but... no. I
can't. I won't say goodbye to Lunarea. Lady Aldea, I live to come
back here. You must understand." She had to understand. She
would. I was their saviour. Her saviour.
"Childsaviour. You cannot continue
to return to this place. Our connection with your world is one of
delicate balance. We can call forth someone from that world when we
are in great need - as we once did. It is an exchange. You were in
danger in your world, we saved you and helped you develop your
strength. In return, you saved me and this entire land. When someone
enters this land when they are not called it creates an imbalance."
"The Catastrophes," I said.
I'd heard similar speeches from others throughout the years, whenever
I'd returned to Lunarea, "But I deal with them, my Lady. I'm
strong enough to stop them."
"The Catastrophes cause damage and
pain that you cannot always stop," I started to protest but she
continued on, "And it is not just the Catastrophes. Our world is
beginning to feel the strain of the imbalance. Our seasons are
changing. Our world is fading."
The snow we had seen. The strange
weather. That's what she was talking about. "Please my lady...
I'll find a way... just give me a chance."
"No. I'm sorry, James. Do not
return here again. I am asking you to make a sacrifice for our
world."
"But... it's my world too."
I'm not sure if she heard me. At that moment everything became blurry
and washed away like sidewalk chalk as rain strikes the pavement. I
was standing in an alley, facing a brick wall. Tears welling up in my
eyes.
I did try to forget about Lunarea. At
first. I even went a couple months without even going near that
alley. I had dreams from time to time. I think they were checking up
on me somehow, making sure I was staying out.
But then I lost my job. It was just a
stupid retail job with an electronics company, but it kept me busy
during the day. Without it, well, I had a lot of time to think.
I mean, I hadn't even had a chance to
say goodbye. One more time wouldn't hurt. To say goodbye. Maybe visit
a couple people. Make sure there was absolutely no way that I could
change Lady Aldea's mind. So I began to plan.
It isn't easy getting into Lunarea. The
first time, I was being chased by some high school kids. Bullies -
the kind that don't know when to stop. I was drawn to the alley that
time because Lady Aldea needed me. When I got there, to the dead end,
the kids started pounding me against the wall. My lip split
completely open. I think one of them stabbed me with something.
Anyway, they would have killed me if I hadn't been pulled into the
other world. Ghatz helped me get better, but once all of my open
wounds had closed, I was sent back to the alley.
I spent two years trying to figure out how
to reopen the gateway to Lunarea. Tested lots of theories. I figured
out that you have to be injured, but it has to be an open wound;
broken bones and anything internal doesn't count. It can't be
self-inflicted. That includes asking a friend to slice your hand
open. Someone or something has to hurt you because they want to. I
went through hell to figure it all out, but it was worth it. Going
back is always worth it.
It gets difficult, though, trying to
think of ways to get someone to hurt you in a specific way in a
specific place. Sometimes they don't hurt you enough. Sometimes they
hurt you too much. You have to be careful who you piss off.
Luckily for me, not even six months
after Lady Aldea asked me not to return, I saw a news article about a
vicious dog that was loose near that particular subway station. I
started taking daily walks near my alleyway. I had a dream about Lady
Aldea talking to Jig and some members of her council.
She said, "He's trying to come
back. We must stop him."
"We've got some ideas, my Lady,
but dunno if any will work. Just the one we was telling you about.
That might." Jiggerpuff. That hurt me more than anything I could
have imagined.
"Well, we have a great need. I
suppose that is the only way. We must end this."
It was only two days later when I
finally ran into the feral mutt that had been wandering around the
neighbourhood. He tore a good chunk out of my arm before I realized I
was standing in Jossip's field. Jig was there again, but this time,
he was with Lady Aldea and some of her guard. There was also a little
boy.
He was about eight. A long cut framed the left side of his face. I
felt nauseous.
"What the hell is this?" I
already knew what they had done.
"We called him here," Lady
Aldea said, "To stop you from destroying our world."
I saw what he held in his hand. A tiny
pebble, like the one I had used to save Jig. A pebble like that would
grant someone a single wish.
"Don't do this," I pleaded,
"Jig please. Please."
He just stared at me. I felt
hysterical. I looked at that boy, not much younger than I was all
those years ago.
"What did they tell you? Hm? That
I was some evil man bent on destroying their world? Did they tell you
I was just like you? They bring you here, make you feel important...
strong... brave... they give you a home and then they take it away!
They're just going to do the same to you. You could change it! You
could wish us here forever!"
"That would break the balance,
James. It would tear our world apart." She was always calm.
Always so fucking calm.
"Listen to me!" I told the
boy, "They'll just use you and throw you away."
He just stared at me. His eyes were
intent and his ear belonged to Aldea. I couldn't blame him, I would
have done the same.
"We did not use you. We gave you
something in return. You were meant to bring everything you learned
back with you to your world. It was meant to help you live your life
there." I hated them. All of them.
"Ha! Haha! Use it there!? Do you
even have a clue what the fuck you're talking about? What exactly was
I supposed to do to make my life better there?"
"Your bravery and self-confidence
could have helped you get away from the bullies in your life. You
could defend yourself. You could make the difficult choices."
"Bravery doesn't mean shit in that
world. Those kids that almost chased me, they didn't care how brave I
was. I could have stood up to them. They still would have beat the
piss out of me! My father..." No, I didn't want to talk about
it. I didn't want to bring this part of my life here. Tears streamed
down my face. "My father didn't care if I defended myself. He'd
just beat the shit out of my mother instead. Sure, I had the
confidence to leave but how the fuck was I supposed to leave her
there? Where would we go? This is the only safe place I've ever known
and now you're taking it away from me."
Jiggerpuff was crying too. "James.
James, I didn't know. I'm so sorry."
Lady Aldea rested her hand on the
shoulder of the small boy beside her. "It doesn't matter now,
James. Return to your world and make the best of your life there."
"Fuck you," I said.
The boy must have made the wish. I was
back in my own world. A bloody and sobbing mess. I wished the dog had
stuck around to finish the job.
I shut myself in my apartment for days.
I didn't eat. I barely moved. Finally a week or so later I got
piss-drunk at a pub a block or two from the Way. I insulted a rowdy
bunch of college kids. I knew they were looking for a fight. When I
left the bar and headed for the alley, they followed me. When they
were done I couldn't move. I just stayed there, sprawled on the
gritty asphalt, watching my blood pool in front of my face. The Way
to Lunarea was forever closed to me.
Someone must have found me, because I
woke up in a hospital bed a couple days later. They said I had talked
about magical worlds and little men with tails and evil sorceresses.
They sent me to see a shrink.
I told him everything. He listened well
enough but I knew he didn't believe me. He gave me some medication
and told me to write it all down. He said that usually helps.
It did help, for a while. Remembering
the details and putting them to paper was kind of like reliving those
all-important moments in my life. When I was done, I even tried to
get it published. No one wanted it, though. One publisher I spoke to
on the phone said that the whole gateway to a magical world thing had
been done to death. People were tired of it.
I went into a depression for a while.
Stopped taking the meds. Thought about killing myself. But things
have been getting better. I've decided I'm tired of laying around
waiting for things to change. I'm never getting back into Lunarea.
That chapter of my life is over.
Besides, magical worlds have been done
to death. If my story is true, then maybe there are others too. There
must be. I know I'll find one sooner or later.
Great story , Amy! Love the characters and the magical worlds :)
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